considering the desperate circumstances that i'm presently in, there's only one word to describe how i'm feeling about the CTs.

NAHBEH. =(








heh, its really quite fun reading your own posts in the past, heh, especially miss the part of the vietnam trip and korbu. brings back a tonne plus plus of memories, haha, memories of unglamness, disgust, weirdness, despair, hope and so much more.

i really miss climbing, it doesn't really help much that my fingers are starting to peel from a lack of use crimps. exams are really unhealthy, after eating you just sit in one ole spot and mug, leaving all the fats to agregrate within you, yucks, the very thought of it puts me off. then of course there are people who study while cycling on a static bike, well, good for burning fats but all knowledge goes along with it.

how i wish that there was some excitement that followed the studying.












orange joy is infectious, guess it resided in me all along. =)


i know not what to say, for there is nothing to say.

the reality of the coming CTs has kinda hit me like a runaway train today. i'm screwed, heck, full steam ahead. and pray that i dun run out of steam before the track ends.


hmm, i just had the weird feeling of posting and deleting my post within a short span of 5 minutes. that's really quite freaky. its like having some split personality disorder.

anyway, weird's really the word that describes me right now, i'm listening to weird songs. is this depression hitting me? i didn't know that monsters could experience that too. the orange joy is getting sucked out of me.

It Ends Tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

how quaint.


i've been feeling super weird lately, mostly disgusted with myself, for deviating from my work. yucks, this situation seems more hopeless than the o levels and i thought that i was screwed then.

somehow guilt therapy is not working anymore. i need a new kinda method to make me study, hahah. maybe isolation.


hmm, actually quite some time since i last blogged. a few short days, but yet again, i experienced a whole range of stuff.

to start off, ATC was yesterday. oh mann, for a moment during the race, i thought that i was not going to make it across the finishing line in one piece. should really have trained for it, instead of staying at home and accumulating fats. yuckified. luckily it was a team event. and i had saw, willy and jy there to provide a mental engine. never really had such a point where your legs stop screaming in pain and they go silent. hmm, quite a novel experience i must say.

life's full of decisions whose consequences affect not just you. at that point, nobody knew what the consequences would be, but we could only just go along and cross our fingers and hope that they're enough. something could have happened, but i guess that we're all glad that it all turned out fine.

had teen games last week at emmanuel's house. hmm, must say that i've learnt something. winning never matters, its just to live life to the fullest. and enjoy the company of the people around you. who knows when your line might just snap like dan osman, or maybe even have a tree trunk come crashing down on you. whenever i'm feeling down now, i think of team hoyt.

oww, the spf 130++ actually works, darn i missed a spot on my shoulder and it hurts to the high heavens now, oww.


omg, someone save me, i think that i am addicted to computer games. like seriously. hmm. can't stop playing! arrgh. i'm so gonna die for mid years.

but then again, i realised that there are quite a few good quotes in dawn of war hahaha.

1)blessed is the mind too small for doubt.

2)better crippled in body than corrupt in mind.

3)innonence proves nothing.

4)pain is an illusion of the senses, despair is an illusion of the mind

5)ignorance is a virtue.

6)a wise man does not fear, a man afraid does not think

7)truth is subjective

8)there is no such thing as innonence, only degrees of guilt

9)the man who has nothing can still have faith.




if only there was a word which jumbled up tonnes of feelings. maybe someone should invent it. bet that it consist of 26 letters or more. i'm feeling kinda guilty now, having not done anything these past week and i'm supposed to be studying zwitterions now. hmm.

rahh, i'm also feeling a twinge lonely. 2 days more to go! whyyyy doessss it seeeemmmm so long. uggh.

oh almost forgot, PUMPFEST was yest! haha. omg, first time i completed a route! although the entire world could but then again, personal satisfaction. =)
i really wonder who was the twit that put it at the top floor of vivo. totally sunnified. how can climbers resist washing their hands in the pool! poisoning the litle kids, yea right.

hmm, i wonder who would have been able to do the 2nd route, maybe chris sharma? hahahaha oops.