Monday, January 07, 2008 at 10:13 PM
i can't help but feel that there's a higher being above me teaching me lessons during the holidays in some unseen way. to whoever's reading this, its gonna get long and draggy. somehow i can't help but feel that it was right going for the krabi trip. its was a definite eye opener and a humbling experience. you can't help but get awed by the people and the rocks there, even though they were silent, they were speaking volumes to me. at first my morale was super degraded, could only accomplish 6a, not even completing a 6a+, doing a few routes in a single day, total shit. no confidence in my feet, not daring to venture out of my comfort zone, fear of falling. it was the deepest shit hole i ever fell into, but then there's this little voice which says is this the best you can do? so yea, tried more at the end of the trip, but still not enough. after the trip went to namly, another humbling experience, there's just so much to learn on the job. so many details, so many procedures. everything has its own allocated place. jeeze, its hard to describe in words. everything must be done with duty, if its not done right, its not a job worth doing. and most importantly, everything starts from nothing. maybe unknowingly i was being trained for NS, hahaha.
at 3:02 PM
feels weird having a blog now, nothing much to say about life anymore and not much time to say it anyway, considering that tekong has no internet and that i'm not allowed to bring computers there. hmm, just discovered cookies in my bag today, i think they've been fermenting for a week now, tastes all right though or so i tink. i think that i'm tasting either butter or almond cookies now. its weird to see ants turn away from food. yep, they're almond all right, or isit peanut butter. i know that everyone's complaining about being old, about having to pay extra for taking a miserable bus ride. hell, i'm one of them too, and oh #%#$^!!^#%^&%^*, its raining again, so much for the trip to the army market. oh another thing about being old, you never wanna venture out in the rain or get wet again. remembered D.Ang on korbu saying: "i'm not as young as i used to be, wet for a while now ah-chooing like free". yep, sad facts of being old. when you're old, you can't maintain during stayovers anymore, because you have to go to work the next day. but hey there's something good about being old, the mundane-ness of everyday life makes you appreciate the simple things in life, be it a song, tune, accquaintence, a moment of solitude. suddenly i miss newton and blondie.
Sunday, January 06, 2008 at 9:06 PM
i am so going to miss my hamsters =(
Tuesday, January 01, 2008 at 6:29 PM
its 1830, and i'm sleepy.