Monday, January 07, 2008 at 10:13 PM
i can't help but feel that there's a higher being above me teaching me lessons during the holidays in some unseen way. to whoever's reading this, its gonna get long and draggy. somehow i can't help but feel that it was right going for the krabi trip. its was a definite eye opener and a humbling experience. you can't help but get awed by the people and the rocks there, even though they were silent, they were speaking volumes to me. at first my morale was super degraded, could only accomplish 6a, not even completing a 6a+, doing a few routes in a single day, total shit. no confidence in my feet, not daring to venture out of my comfort zone, fear of falling. it was the deepest shit hole i ever fell into, but then there's this little voice which says is this the best you can do? so yea, tried more at the end of the trip, but still not enough. after the trip went to namly, another humbling experience, there's just so much to learn on the job. so many details, so many procedures. everything has its own allocated place. jeeze, its hard to describe in words. everything must be done with duty, if its not done right, its not a job worth doing. and most importantly, everything starts from nothing. maybe unknowingly i was being trained for NS, hahaha.