Sunday, May 25, 2008 at 12:22 AM
es war nicht allzu lange her, was ich teetered auf eine Kante wie dieser, bereit zu fallen zurück in ein Tal der i kämpften hart zu klettern aus. Vielleicht habe ich einfach nie lernen.
Saturday, May 24, 2008 at 4:31 PM
met some truly disappointing people today, actually i really have no idea why they're where they are. i personally think that their attitude is wrong, to neglect duties entrusted upon them for the sake of their own pleasure and enjoyment is really unbecoming of people whom others are counting on. but not that i'm shed of all guilt though. thought that the test today was quite fun, i really dun mind if i get in =)hmm, what to say about the past 12 days...like previous instructors said, its really a time where you get to know who your friends are and who are those with shitty attitude. its a time where you gradually begin to accept people and first impressions melt away, people who lend you a helping hand in literally the darkest hour, people whom desert you for a few moments of self pleasure. you begin to see and experience the well, realism of the world actually. you get to see the sides of people, soft exteriors belie an iron will, a kindly face on a trickster. the past days have also given one a lot of time to think while you wait. i remember lying on the floor and seeing this teensy weensy spider, no more than the fullstop at the end of this sentence, spinning a web. the web was puny and i started wondering, what use does this web do? does this spider realise that there are other bigger insects out there whom this web is useless against? then somehow it suddenly struck me, we could very well be that spider, caught in our daily pursuits and ignorant of the magnitude of the world.
Sunday, May 11, 2008 at 11:22 AM
i can't help but feel excited. EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED!wonder what it would be like, meeting new people, new friends, new environment, new new new new new new new. and now i wish that fred would go to melb hahaha then can visit one another sometime. hahah i need to know how to cook and clean. i actually dream of the place hahahaha.
Saturday, May 03, 2008 at 2:42 PM
i realise that i'm day dreaming alot, wouldn't life be wonderful if .....if.....if........visions of the future seem pretty great. but somehow the present seems gloomy. i've learnt never to really really hope or wish for something, so that when i get it, i feel surprised that i got it, and if i don't, well, it just cushions the impact. but right now i really really really hope that i get my letter. please please please let it be right. i can't believe i'm so lazy =(
Thursday, May 01, 2008 at 11:03 PM
yep, it feels good to be back home once again, even though my eyelids feel like lead i can't sleep because somehow i feel excited. at nothing. uh huh. now all i can do is just sit and pray. a lot.