hmm long time since i last blogged, close to a month actually. thinking back it didn't really seem so long, in a whirlwind blur everything has passed. and now the pinnacle lies ahead. ROC. somehow i'm dreading everyday that passes closer to it. dreading more than brunei in fact. maybe its the fact that its the ultimate factor deciding if you're ready or not.

and oh where has confidence fled to now.

i have my utmost respect for those fasting muslims who still continue training. despite not eating and drinking. despite the hot weather bearing down on them. despite the constant temptations of the sweet nectar of raindrops that roll down their faces. all it takes is justa single lick. yet they hold true. where lesser men like me would have faltered, they stride on. you guys have my salutes.

and this small part left is for brinjal cheer up yo what type of monkey can fly? (ans way below)
If you don't have a smile, I'll give you one of mine.

































ans: a hot air baboon =) *giggles*




today's session really helped me alot. its tough to find a listening ear now, thanks for yours =)

i feel so much better. its good to know that you're not the only one making tough decisions, that you're not the only one thinking about things that way.

one step at a time now.


once again i submit to another of my hunger pangs. i'm waiting for my instant noodles to cook at this god forsaken hour. and i secretly added almost the whole pack of seasoning.

super sinful.

but who cares. I know i'm not. bless the guy who discovered natural gas. bless the guy who made the ikea pot. now everywhere i look i give myself a smile for being a homeo sapien. how did we turn trees and such into the dwellings we stay in. the food we eat, the stuff we entertain ourseleves with. we've become so accustomed to such things we rarely give thanks for them anymore and just take it for granted. well here's my thanks who made it possible for hot noodles to take up citizenship in my stomach.